Uzuku aza to yugamu ura

Romaji and English translation of the song 疼く痣と歪む裏 (Uzuku aza to yugamu ura) from the single reila by the GazettE.

Lyrics originally sung in English are in italics , and words or phrases I felt were implied are in [brackets] in the translation.

I also (usually) put repeats of chorus/verses/stanzas in [brackets] if they’re not written that way in the original lyrics for ease of singing along.

If he writes a word in the lyrics but doesn’t sing it, I put it in light grey to make it easier to skip when singing along.

I usually romajize katakana characters in CAPITALS, and keep punctuation and line spacing as close to the original booklet as possible. If you see me putting spaces before punctuation at the end of a sentence or writing things in mixed-case capitals, that’s because it’s how it was in the booklet.

Any comments I had during the romajization/translation process will be included as footnotes so as not to disturb the flow of the song. They’re not required reading, but Ruki does some pretty nifty things with his lyrics/kanji choices, or sometimes there’s further explanations about words or phrases in there.

Uzuku aza to yugamu ura: Romaji

Honnou wo yusaburu　hiwai sugiru tetsuki
Oboreru youni enjiru kara　hora…
“Yura yura yura yurara” odorou

Tsumaranasou na kao　kedarusou na koe
Kanjiteru furi kurai shina yo
“Hora, hora, hora, hora, hora…”

Damashi damashi no kakehiki kara mou
Nukedasenai　nukedashita kunai　dakara
“Yura yura yura yurara” odorou

Fukan¹ no aijou ni kidzuki　me wo somuketeita
ANBARANSU na kako　tamerau KIRI kizu
Sukima naku umetsukusu　jamana SONO butsu wa
Konousuru ore wo tsubusu yo

Naze　kimi² wa ima mo kage no nai　aitsu wo miteiru ndai?
Naze　kimi wa itsumo ore ni SONO kizu wo kakusu ndai?
Ore no koe wa kimi no yami ni todokazu tada kuchiru yo
Kimi wa ima mo SONO itami ni furue　“katachi dake no ore wo…”

Damashi damashi no kakehiki kara mou
Nukedasenai　nukedashita kunai　dakara
“Yura yura yura yurara” odorou

Ore wa kimi ni totte　nandatta no darou
Rikaifunou no ima³ ga shikai ni yakitsuku
Hakike sasou joukei　burasagaru kimi
Mugon no ketsubetsu ga　ore ni tsukisasaru

Kanashige na kao wa　engi nanka janaku
Ore ni wa misenakatta　sugao no kimi datta
Ore wa shittoshiteita　subete wo yurushiteita
Kanojo no saiai datta　aitsu wo nikunda

Naze　kimi wa ima mo kage no nai　aitsu wo miteiru ndai?
Naze　kimi wa itsumo ore ni　SONO kizu wo kakusu ndai?
Ore no koe wa kimi no yami ni　todokazu tada kuchiru yo
Kimi wa ima mo SONO itami ni　furueteiru

Katachi dake de nakami no nai　aijou to shitteta kedo
Kimi ni furete kimi wo daite　sukoshi dake waraiatte
Yume no youna　hitotoki ni　koufuku wo kanjite
Demo kimi wa kage no nai AITSU to　baka na ore wo waratteru

Throbbing Bruises and a Twisted Personality: Translation

What you did is too indecent;　it’s setting my impulses on edge
[But] I’m only pretending to drown,　so hey…
“Swaying, swaying, we’ll sway some more;” let’s dance

Your bored-looking face　your indifferent-sounding voice
At least pretend you feel something
“Hey, hey, hey, hey, hey…”

I can’t break free　 from your underhanded tactics
I no longer want to break free　so
“Swaying, swaying, we’ll sway some more;” let’s dance

Noticing your distant feelings　I’d avert my eyes
Your unbalanced past　and wounds [caused by] indecision
Those bothersome things　packed so tight [inside you] there’s no space left
[They] break me down in my distress

Why　are you still watching for　him, the one without a shadow?⁴
Why　do you always hide your wounds from me?
My voice can’t reach the darkness in you, and simply dies out
Now you’re trembling from that pain but　“I’m nothing but a stand-in…”⁵

I can’t break free　 from your underhanded tactics
I no longer want to break free　so
“Swaying, swaying, we’ll sway some more;” let’s dance

I wonder　what I really was to you
This incomprehensible situation　is [forever] etched into my vision
The sight of you dangling there⁶　makes me feel like I’m going to be sick
Your mute farewell　pierces through my [heart]

That heartbroken face　isn’t an act at all
So this was the real you　that you never showed me
I had been so jealous　but I’ll let it all go
[Even] the hatred for the guy　she was in love with

Why　are you still watching for　him, the one without a shadow?
Why　do you always hide your wounds from me?
My voice can’t reach the darkness in you, and simply dies
Now you’re still trembling　from that pain

I knew our love was　just for show with no substance but
Touching you, holding you　just laughing a bit with you
It was like a dream　and at that moment　I knew happiness
But now you and ‘that guy’ without a shadow　are laughing at me, the fool⁷

He writes 不感 fukan which is not a word by itself, but the beginning of 不感症 fukanshou “sexual frigidity; insensitivity, indifference.”
Throughout the song, 彼女 kanojo “she/her” is written, but 君 kimi “you (familiar form)” is sung. There’s only one part where he writes 彼女 and actually sings it as that.
現実 genjitsu “reality, fact” is written, while 今 ima “now, the present” is sung.
The guy loves his girlfriend, but she seems to be hung up on a past love (I’m assuming dead since he says he “has no shadow”).
The word used here is 形 katachi “form, shape, figure.” Again, since she’s hung up on her former love, he wants to comfort her and have her open her heart to him, but she’s basically treating him like a warm body rather than an actual boyfriend she cares about. This is kind of like, “I know you don’t really love me, and you’re just using me as a poor substitute for him.”
She committed suicide by hanging herself.
‘That guy’ is in quotes/partial italics for emphasis because he wrote it differently in this one line compared to everywhere else he talked about him. Usually, he used あいつ aitsu “that guy/person, him” but here he said アイツ aitsu in kana. Usually when he switches like this it’s to indicate a change in attitude towards the person or a change in the way he’s speaking to/about them.

Also, he’s basically saying, “I was stupid for staying with you even though I knew you weren’t really in love with me. Now you two are together again (in death) and laughing at me for being such an idiot.” ☹