Kawareta haru, kawarenu haru

Romaji and English translation of the song 飼育れた春、変われぬ春 (Kawareta haru, kawarenu haru) from the EP MADARA by the GazettE
(This song title is often incorrectly romajized as Shiikureta haru, kawarenu haru.)

Translator's Notes
  • Lyrics originally sung in English are in italics in the translation.
  • Words or phrases I felt were implied are in [brackets].
  • I also (usually) put repeats of chorus/verses/stanzas in [brackets] if they’re not written that way in the original lyrics for ease of singing along.
  • Any comments I had during the romajization/translation process will be included as footnotes so as not to disturb the flow of the song. They’re not required reading, but Ruki does some pretty nifty things with his lyrics/kanji choices, or sometimes there’s further explanations about words or phrases in there.

Kawareta haru, kawarenu haru: Romaji

Ame ni oborenagara     toikakeru, atashi wa dougu na no?
Kokoro nado nakereba     doredake     mukuwareru no darou

Tsunagareteta the reason for being…
Tachikirereba     sachiaru mirai

Kami ni karamitsuita     musekaeru     dansei no kaori
Moteasobareta     karada no kizu     kazoereba     kunou to narite

Nigerarenu sorrowful dirty of me 
Mou daremo aishite kurenai 

Sayonara rairai (RAIRAI1)     sayonara rairai (RAIRAI)
Ikiteku koto     tsurakunatte
I’m say with love good bye my detre      saki iku fukou     douka yurushite
[Sayonara rairai (RAIRAI)     sayonara rairai (RAIRAI)
Ikiteku koto     tsurakunatte
I’m say with love good bye my detre      saki iku fukou     douka yurushite]

Dareka atashi wo tasukete kudasai… kono mama ja kogoete shimau wa…
Dareka atashi wo tasukete kudasai…dareka atashi wo tasukete kudasai

[Tsunagareteta the reason for being…
Tachikirereba     sachiaru mirai]

Scared…scared     kodomo no you ni furuete
Koe wo dashite     sakenda

Sayonara rairai (RAIRAI) sayonara rairai (RAIRAI)
Ikiteku koto      tsurakunatte
I’m say with love goodbye my detre    Saki yuku fukou     douka yurushite
[Sayonara rairai (RAIRAI) sayonara rairai (RAIRAI)
Ikiteku koto      tsurakunatte
I’m say with love goodbye my detre    Saki yuku fukou     douka yurushite]

I do say with love…good bye my detre…


Nurtured longing2, unchanging longing: Translation

Nearly drowning in the pouring rain     I ask myself, ‘Am I just a tool?’
If you don’t even have a heart     how long     will it take for me to repay you 

We’re bound to each other, the reason for being… 
If I could break this bond     I could have a happy future

I’m gagging on     the smell of those men     in my tangled hair
If I were to count     the scratches on my body     from their toying with me     I’d drown in despair 

There’s no escape sorrowful dirty of me 
No one will ever be able to love crimson-stained me

Goodbye my fate, my future3; goodbye my fate, my future
My life has become too hard to bear 
I’m say with love good bye my detre4      
please forgive me     and allow me the misery of dying first

[Goodbye my fate, my future; goodbye my fate, my future
My life has become too hard to bear 
I’m say with love good bye my detre
 please forgive me     and allow me the misery of dying first]

Someone please save5 me…
Or I’m going to be frozen this way forever…
Someone please rescue me… Someone help me, please… 

[We’re bound to each other the reason for being… 
If I could break this bond     I could have a happy future]

Scared…scared  I’m shivering like a child
I raised my voice     and screamed


Goodbye my fate, my future; goodbye my fate, my future
My life has become     too hard to bear 
I’m say with love good bye my detre
 please forgive me     and allow me the misery of dying first
[Goodbye my fate, my future; goodbye my fate, my future
My life has become too hard to bear 
I’m say with love good bye my detre  
please forgive me     and allow me the misery of dying first]

I do say with love… good bye my detre…

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  1. This note is included to show how to pronounce 来来 rairai, since it’s not a regular kanji compound, but it is not sung. I still included it because it’s part of the lyrics, but I didn’t put it in the translation.
  2. While 春 haru is usually translated as “spring,” it can also mean “youth/sexuality” – combined with the rest of the song, it’s not referring to springtime. Incidentally haru is also part of a euphemism for prostitution. (More on that in the last note.)  “Longing” in this case could be her longing to be free, or the longing of the men – reader’s choice.
  3. He uses the kanji 来 rai twice in a row, which together is not a word; by itself rai means “future” – so doubled, she’s saying goodbye to her future in its entirety: both the future she currently has to look forward to (her fate), as well as the future she wishes she could have had (her future).
  4. D’être is French for “to be” or “for living.” The whole phrase you usually see is raison d’être – “reason for living”, which his what I think this is short for. So basically since she feels she has no more reason for living (or that the only reason she’s alive is to be used by men), she’s happy to say goodbye.
  5. 助けて tasukete can be translated as many words meaning “help/rescue/save/spare/aid” – I translated it with different words each time since she keeps repeating the plea over and over.
  6. I’ve read a bunch of thoughts on what this song means, and I’m agreeing with the ones who think that this girl has been basically forced into prostitution to fund her mother’s lifestyle. She’s being expected to “repay” her for her life but since her mother is heartless (you’d have to be to force your own daughter into prostitution), she’ll never be satisfied.

    They’re “bound to each other” because they’re family, but the daughter thinks she could be happy if only she could get away. She has no reason for living (or her reason for living is, rather, helping her mother profit by being forced to be abused by men), so she wants to die.  And she asks forgiveness for wanting the somewhat dubious pleasure of dying first (since normally a girl would not precede her mother in death if things were to happen naturally).

斑蠡~MADARA~ album cover art © 2004 PS Company

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